Keep the Faith!

summer

2005-07-23T20:56:08Z

wow, I totally forgot I had this. wow. again. so this totally sucks that summer's basically over. someone just shoot me in the ear. retreat was amazing. I can't wait for the river trip. woohoo. I'm in a really odd mood because of Kelly. hehehehe. I love you, Kelly. You and your toilet paper. and I know you love me too.

pay-per-view. haha, get it?
I don't...

Laterr.
<>< Keep the faith.

Feelings

2005-05-13T04:52:37Z

So, the past couple weeks have really sucked. I've just been completely exhausted except for those few nights where I got lots of sleep because I was sick. But, I don't know what's going on right now. It seems like there's five or six different emotions I'm feeling but I don't know how to explain it. It's kind of like all the emotions just meshed into one and it's not really a feeling. It's just bleh. I think it's gotten to the point where I just don't care anymore, which is kind of sad considering I still have three more years left of high school, plus college (hopefully). But, once again- I don't care!! I hate everything right now. I hate life. I hate school. I hate teachers. I hate band. I hate this gayass concert. I just want it to be over. I hate people. I hate how some of my friends are treating each other. I hate how people don't respect each other. I hate people that brag. I hate how I choose not to stop some of my bad habits. I hate how my faith feels like it's slipping. I hate guys. I hate crappy mariachis (sorry just had to say that). I hate how we have to practice fifteen hours this weekend. I hate headaches. I hate exams; all of them, not just finals. I hate waking up early. I hate staying late. I hate homework and how I don't have any time to do it. I hate how I'm not learning anything and it seems like there's no point in even going to school. I hate my daily routine. I have how everything seems pointless now and I'm just going through the motions. I hate how there's still nine days of school left. I hate how summer isn't here yet. I hate how my cousins have to live so freaking far away. I hate how people have to die. I hate everything and it seems like if I try to change anything, it won't have any effect. I feel like everything is just going down the drain and I'm too lazy to reach for it all before it does. I hate this feeling...wow, I just realized I said the word "feeling" an awful lot in this post. Oh well, I have been "feeling" a lot lately. Hope you enjoyed my excessively negative post today. Hope your day didn't suck as much as mine. Congrats everyone on your awesome band results. You guys did great. Sometimes I wish I played a different instrument...everything would be so much easier. WHY DOES SCHOOL HAVE TO BE SO STRESSFUL??? Please, let me know if you are stressed as much as me so I know I'm not going insane. Throbbing headaches suck. Back to bullshitting my way through this "personal legend" deal. Laterr.

<><. Trying to keep the faith.

Things

2005-05-04T04:42:27Z

"Is that a condom?"
--Mr. V pops glove with scissors--
"Mr. V! That's so unfair!"
"It's not a toy."

Bible study = awkward. That is all. Oh, and Erik is not cool. He said I was ugly. --tear--

"Muse concert tonight!!"
"I hate you."
"I know. hehe."
so jealous....

Ms. Wiley officially hates me now. Yes, I reached my lifelong goal! We're finally even.

damn english paper

2005-04-28T04:38:44Z

So I went to see the mormon temple with Kadi and her mom. Let's just say it was quiiiite interesting...hmm. The cookies were good! I also got home an hour or so later than I thought I would because of the stupid buses. They only had two so it took forever.
I just realized I have a lot of homework. I mean, a lot. Trig, study for spanish, english paper, english project, damn english...and that teacher. We just finished a huge book and now we have to finish a new one and do a project in a week? Then we have to write our own "Personal Legend". What the hell is a personal legend? Well, I'm sure I don't have one because my life is boring as hell.
Hah, we voted for band superlatives in class today. I totally put Trent for biggest flirt hahaha. Okay, why are so many people trying out for drum major when they know only three of them are going to make it? Seriously, I can't believe twenty-two people want it that bad. It's not that great. I bet half the people won't even show up for the auditions.
I read through the jazz audition stuff with Joanis today. Man, jazz is my new favorite kind of music! It's freaking amazing. You just get to make up whatever you want if you just keep tempo. It's pretty sweet. I'm pretty psyched for auditions now. I just need to get the cd to play along with and work on my solo stuff. There is this one song where you just improv the whole time. Two more weeks!! Can't wait. I also canNOT wait for BAND BANQUET!!! Oh my gosh! It's gonna be freaking awesome. I already know like six or so people who voted me for best percussion girl. Yay. Maybe it's because there's only six girls in percussion though...
So, I think it's only down to one guy now. But I still don't know cuz I always catch myself staring and when he talks to me it feels like there's no one else around, and I love that feeling. Like I mentioned before, I canNOT wait for BAND BANQUET!!! The end.

Band Banquet

2005-04-24T18:21:06Z

I think I need to buy a ticket to band banquet. I cannot wait. It's gonna be a blast. So, I asked Adriana some things about it and here was how our conversation went a little:

Me- "So Adriana, do people go to band banquet with dates?"
Adriana- "Not really. No. You just end up hanging out with everyone anyways cuz you know, we're all like family in band."
Me- "Yah. Well that's cool."
Adriana- "Yup. Unless of course people are going together as a first step to head into a relationship you know, like right before boyfriend/girlfriend type thing. hahaha, but not many people do that."
Me- "Hahaha, yah, losers. So is there dancing at band banquet?"
Adriana- "Ohhh yah! A LOT of dancing. It's a blast!"
Me- "Awesome."

And that was basically it, then we talked about where it's gonna be at and she told me that I'm the sister she's never had. hahahaha. Or brother..lol. I love you, Adriana!

So, it was pretty cold out today. I loved it. It felt nice. Montoya's taking my spot tonight!! HAHAHA Yah good luck with that..wish I could watch him, that would be a sight. So, I definitely like live journals way better than xangas. They're amazing.

So there's two guys...hehe.
--Laterr.
<>< Keep the faith.

keepthefaith200 @ 2005-04-23T21:42:00

2005-04-24T03:19:55Z

This would be my third entry for this here live journal. Hope you're enjoying it. I saw Guess Who today. Good movie. Quite funny. Other than that, I did nothing, except try to read guitar tabs. Which I can't. Haha, I'm so helpless. I also practiced piano and some drumset. One of the previews at the movies had "Apocalypse Please" in it by MUSE!!! Ah, that's so freaking amazing. I have never heard a Muse song in any movie before. They are so awesome! I love MUSE!!! <3. So, right now I'm listening to a recording of Synergy and I forgot just how much that show sucked. I'm sorry, but I hated it. Beyond Perimeters is by far Reagan's best show in history. Mostly because the best percussion instructors were there. Man, I wish I was in the band for that show...:( but at least I got a shirt:) haha I'm such a dork. So I think I like two guys. I really don't know what to do. Oh well. Time to go do some of my homework and think about some stuff...good day today.
--Laterr.
<>< Keep the faith.

parade

2005-04-22T14:39:00Z

Battle of Flowers Parade..shoot me now. The bus ride was fun last night.
--Laterr people
<>< Keep the faith

new journal

2005-04-21T03:18:26Z

Thanks Noelani for making this for me! I was too lazy :-D hehe. Alright,well hey if you're reading this...welcome to my live journal. I don't see the point to xangas anymore. Well, I'll update laterr. Gotta go to bed and get ready for that TAKS!! haha. w.e
Sweet dreams all.
Should I tell him??
--Laterr. Keep the faith.